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Boys and girls, I got an Instagram. I realize this isn’t exciting to anyone else, but it was to me. By the way, that’s not really the point of this blog. Some of you have followed me already, thanks for that by the way, you are the bestest!  Anyway, you may have noticed a picture of the song Trust and Obey with a small bit of information about me quitting my second job. Let me give you some background on this situation. I have been with this company for 18 years in one way or another. I’m going to try and sum up around 18 years of information in a short blog, so bare with me. Around 15 years ago I moved to another state and I did what you normally do in these situations, I gave my notice to the company. They were working on keeping me on and letting me work from home. Sweet, right? Problem, right before I moved I was told they couldn’t keep me after all. That’s certainly not what I wanted to hear, especially since I was no longer looking for a job because I thought I had one. OK, ok I can deal with this. Move complete, now onward to the job search. This really cool thing happened next. The company called and asked if I could train someone. Umm easy peasy, let’s do this! What started as a simple training turned into hey can you help with this project, can you train this person, I need this done and I’m not sure who else can help are you available. This was amazing! The problem was it wasn’t steady, I never knew what I was going to be doing from week to week or if I was going to be working that week at all. I needed a job that was steady so I went looking and found one. It was also a temporary position with a company just down the road. I didn’t leave my original company though. I was still deeply attached to them so I still helped as often as I could. A short while later, my original company calls and offers me a position with 40 hours a week..score! I’m working from home with steady hours. You know those original questions that kept popping up; the hey can will and will you questions? Those didn’t go away, so I’m working 40 hours a week plus the extra for random stuff. Everyone works overtime so it’s whatever, except it continues. Time goes on and now I’m working for 10-12 departments and no one knows ahead of time how many hours a week I’d work because I don’t report to one person. I just sort of float to whoever needs my help. It was insane!

Now, let’s skip a few years and come to a more recent point. I’ve been feeling God tell me I need to cut back and work for only one department. Remember the I’m deeply attached to them comment? God is telling me to let them go? WHAT?!?! I won’t tell you it was the easiest to do. So many questions flooded my mind. I’ve been working steadily for several years now. Since my hours vary so does my paycheck, but now it’s varying at less money. There are many in this world that understand, but for many you get the same amount on your paycheck each week. For 15 years I’ve had no idea what I would get from week to week. Try figuring out a budget with that! Now I’ll have even less to work with. Besides money, what am I supposed to do with the extra time, Lord? I don’t believe He has told me this to tell me to sit and do nothing. Those are just a couple of thoughts and questions, believe me there are many more. Guess what? God said it was time and that means it’s time. I can’t rely on my thoughts because more often than not they are useless to me. God knows though. He knows exactly why He has this planned. He knows what He has asked of me. It’s my job to be willing. It’s my job to say yes, I’ll do or I’ll go, even if the budget doesn’t look like I can. I don’t have to have a plan, because He does. It’s my job to trust and obey. The good shepherd knows what He is doing. He goes before me and prepares everything I need.

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.